I spent last week with my family, in Utah and New Mexico, mostly. (Although I guess we were briefly in Arizona, Colorado, and Nevada…)
It was really good to see my sister, who I only see rarely. It was nice to get to disconnect, especially in the mornings. Somehow, I feel less of a desire to be connected to the rest of the world in the morning, but my awareness of the fact that I’m “missing out” on the internet, on what my friends are doing, on what’s happening in the world, always ends up coming back. This was the first vacation I’ve taken since I became the owner of a smart phone.
Okay, so I originally meant to talk about the vacation itself, but I’m maybe more interested in writing about this: the ways that having constant and easy access to the internet, via a small mobile device that fits in your pocket, really changes the way you wait for things. Over the past month or so, I find myself eagerly awaiting messages from my friends in a way that I think was never really part of my life before. When I’m focused on something, I’m still focused—but it’s become so much easier to un-focus, to be consistently distracted. It’s part of why I thought for a long while that I didn’t want to get a phone with internet—I’m all at once happy to have this unprecedented access to the world and frightened by how much time I can spend plugged into a computer.
During the vacation, I would estimate that I only spent a couple of hours on my phone. Checking email, reading some blog posts, responding to some messages. I read quite a lot. My family and I conversed quite a lot. Yet somehow I felt like I was wasting my time with the phone, like it was keeping me from something in the moment.
Regardless, a few photographs.














